Hmmmm.....Where to start.....
Well, might as well start from the begining....
My day started off pretty well considering I had to work. Was full of energy for some reason. I never have energy when I have to work. Especially when I have to close the dang place. Which is what I had to do. Anyways, I barely got there and clocked in and it starts to get busy. F'n campers. LOL J/K. It got so busy I BARELY had time to fill the machines with their stupid ingredients!!!! Haha. I know, I know....it sounds like whining, but I DON'T CARE!!!! lol The day went fast and I'm glad for it. Although clean-up after closing sucks, I make sure I got everything, set the alarm and said "bye-bye" to the dang place. At least till tomorrow when I have to go back. Grr! lol
Moving on....
My friend picked me up after I closed, we drove around for a bit to try to get me relaxxed a bit...Well, it didn't work...I'm STILL wired to beat hell and it's 2 frickin 30 in the morning! Guess that's what i get for drinking a double shot of espresso. LOL Anyways...we came back to her place, started making supper while her mom was on the internet...then called her b/f...we talked for a while about how our days went and the like...hung up with him and got on the net to send him some things via e-mail...talked to him online a bit...got off the net and called him back. Got to talking about a few things...then I don't know how it happened or why, but something snapped inside me and I blew up at him for no reason.I said something to the effect of "How about I never speak to you again." He said, "Fine." Then I came into the office and started bawling because I was P.O.'d at myself for saying it. I wanted to appologize, but I couldn't stop crying. By the time I did, my friend had hung up with her b/f. So, here it is...Dear One (you know who you are)....if you are reading this...I appologize with my heart, mind, body and soul. I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me. (Wipes a stream of tears away.) AHEM Sorry. I know i should have done that in person or over the phone, but I felt bad enough and couldn't take anymore critisism and I was also afraid of blowing up again. I was also afraid of what you may have said to me. So anyways...Accept it or don't. It is your choice.
Well, now that that's off my chest and mind....
Oh, by the way...Thank you Natosha and Zackery for the lovely comments on my first posting. And, yes, Natosha I know you will set a fire on my Azz to keep this up. :)
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Well, I'm glad the day went well, sorry that happened with Your buddy, that sucks, but You apologized and that's pretty much all You can do except for try not to do it in the future... A lot easier said than done, I know. >_< Wired is fun.. except exhausting.
I know at times its very hard to express feelings. It happens to the best of us. I know in my heart that he would never give up on you. As you are well aware, he's having to deal with varying degrees of tough situations. I'm sure when he reads this, he'll begin to understand you a lot more. And like I've stated in the past, when you two are around each other, it's ten times better. Phones can be a pain in the ...yeah...lol..sometimes. Love ya!
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