Hmmmm.....Where to start.....
Well, might as well start from the begining....
My day started off pretty well considering I had to work. Was full of energy for some reason. I never have energy when I have to work. Especially when I have to close the dang place. Which is what I had to do. Anyways, I barely got there and clocked in and it starts to get busy. F'n campers. LOL J/K. It got so busy I BARELY had time to fill the machines with their stupid ingredients!!!! Haha. I know, I know....it sounds like whining, but I DON'T CARE!!!! lol The day went fast and I'm glad for it. Although clean-up after closing sucks, I make sure I got everything, set the alarm and said "bye-bye" to the dang place. At least till tomorrow when I have to go back. Grr! lol
Moving on....
My friend picked me up after I closed, we drove around for a bit to try to get me relaxxed a bit...Well, it didn't work...I'm STILL wired to beat hell and it's 2 frickin 30 in the morning! Guess that's what i get for drinking a double shot of espresso. LOL Anyways...we came back to her place, started making supper while her mom was on the internet...then called her b/f...we talked for a while about how our days went and the like...hung up with him and got on the net to send him some things via e-mail...talked to him online a bit...got off the net and called him back. Got to talking about a few things...then I don't know how it happened or why, but something snapped inside me and I blew up at him for no reason.I said something to the effect of "How about I never speak to you again." He said, "Fine." Then I came into the office and started bawling because I was P.O.'d at myself for saying it. I wanted to appologize, but I couldn't stop crying. By the time I did, my friend had hung up with her b/f. So, here it is...Dear One (you know who you are)....if you are reading this...I appologize with my heart, mind, body and soul. I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me. (Wipes a stream of tears away.) AHEM Sorry. I know i should have done that in person or over the phone, but I felt bad enough and couldn't take anymore critisism and I was also afraid of blowing up again. I was also afraid of what you may have said to me. So anyways...Accept it or don't. It is your choice.
Well, now that that's off my chest and mind....
Oh, by the way...Thank you Natosha and Zackery for the lovely comments on my first posting. And, yes, Natosha I know you will set a fire on my Azz to keep this up. :)
Monday, June 26, 2006
Sunday, June 25, 2006
Am I Really Here?
That is the million dollar question right there.
I usually enjoy voicing out my thoughts and feelings but I figured why not take a chance with a blog. I mean, all my friends have one, why not me?!
My life has been pretty laid back with the exception of working my ass off at the store where i'm not appreciated. I'm sure all of you who will read this can relate to that feeling. You would think I'd have a main job there but oh no, I'm put anywhere they want me including working in a frickin cold cooler restalking everything that nobody else does. My back is so out of place from this chit. heh
Anyways, since mid last year, I met Natosha. She had just moved back and we hit it off the moment she started givin me hell at work. lol
Man, she drives me bonkers at times but apparently people say we are "highly entertaining" together. She has introduced me to several very intriguing people since then.
Angel. God, where do I begin with him.
He's this mysterious breath taking young man whom Natosha has fallen for. I was able to meet him the first time he came to visit her and ever since he just won't "get out of my head!" lol(inside joke. yeah.)
He's like a ...well..if you want to see a photo, I may put one on here later on. You'll know exactly what I mean. OOO! I know, for all you Laurell K. Hamilton fans out there: he looks like Jean Claude. I remember Natosha showing me his pic for the first time and I damn near slid off my chair. I exclaimed "Oh My God, that's Jean freakin Claude!" She looked at me like "wtf". So of course I had to show her the site and describe.
He's been mistaken for several celebrities which I think is hilarious. Poor bastard. lol Johnny Depp, Orlando Bloom(not sure but depends on the angle), but especially Brandon Lee. Natosha had pointed that out to me and I was in total agreement. He, on the other hand, waves it away and rolls his eyes. Typical modesty.
Then...oh boy...there's ZACKERY! Or as I like to say, Zacky poo.lol
Zack has been Natosha's friend for almost six years. Zack's very enigmatic, highly intelligent and drives me batty with the off the wall comments. Zack knows how to make me laugh and catch me off guard so much its a good thing I'm sitting down during.lol
Then..well...there's this older gentleman, you know who you are. He's also been an inspiration to me like angel and zack. I just recently began talking to him thru Natosha. She had no problem letting me be myself around angel and zack so why not the Gentleman. These three friends of hers always seem to read me like a freakin book. I swear to god.
Angel says I have a megaphone built into my head. Zack and Natosha agree and will use it to their advantage any time they wish. I'm always boppin my head with my hand saying "Get outta my head".lol(insert inside joke here too)
About me,
As you've probably picked up on, I usually try to get along with people as long as they give me my space. Yet! These four seem to push my limits without trying and it pisses me off sometimes.lol
Let's see,
oh..as you also have guessed, I'm a major Laurell K. Hamilton reader, especially her Anita Blake Vampire Hunter Novels. I relate to her main character alot. All the chit she's been thru. I seem to also fall for the tall slim dark haired and piercing eyed handsome men. (you know who you are. he he he) Now, don't get me wrong, I'm starting to realize there's other qualities that I'm attracted to lately. Right now, I don't really want to get into too many graphic details. lol
Recently I've become "un" engaged. Ha. Yeah. WTF. Sometimes I wonder what goes thru a guy's mind when he asks for the ring back and then doesn't understand why I don't wish to talk to him or be around him. Anyone care to explain this to me, because I have no F'n clue. lol
So, I'm hoping this is a good start in blogging, as they call it. I'll keep you updated, if you care. hehehehe
I usually enjoy voicing out my thoughts and feelings but I figured why not take a chance with a blog. I mean, all my friends have one, why not me?!
My life has been pretty laid back with the exception of working my ass off at the store where i'm not appreciated. I'm sure all of you who will read this can relate to that feeling. You would think I'd have a main job there but oh no, I'm put anywhere they want me including working in a frickin cold cooler restalking everything that nobody else does. My back is so out of place from this chit. heh
Anyways, since mid last year, I met Natosha. She had just moved back and we hit it off the moment she started givin me hell at work. lol
Man, she drives me bonkers at times but apparently people say we are "highly entertaining" together. She has introduced me to several very intriguing people since then.
Angel. God, where do I begin with him.
He's this mysterious breath taking young man whom Natosha has fallen for. I was able to meet him the first time he came to visit her and ever since he just won't "get out of my head!" lol(inside joke. yeah.)
He's like a ...well..if you want to see a photo, I may put one on here later on. You'll know exactly what I mean. OOO! I know, for all you Laurell K. Hamilton fans out there: he looks like Jean Claude. I remember Natosha showing me his pic for the first time and I damn near slid off my chair. I exclaimed "Oh My God, that's Jean freakin Claude!" She looked at me like "wtf". So of course I had to show her the site and describe.
He's been mistaken for several celebrities which I think is hilarious. Poor bastard. lol Johnny Depp, Orlando Bloom(not sure but depends on the angle), but especially Brandon Lee. Natosha had pointed that out to me and I was in total agreement. He, on the other hand, waves it away and rolls his eyes. Typical modesty.
Then...oh boy...there's ZACKERY! Or as I like to say, Zacky poo.lol
Zack has been Natosha's friend for almost six years. Zack's very enigmatic, highly intelligent and drives me batty with the off the wall comments. Zack knows how to make me laugh and catch me off guard so much its a good thing I'm sitting down during.lol
Then..well...there's this older gentleman, you know who you are. He's also been an inspiration to me like angel and zack. I just recently began talking to him thru Natosha. She had no problem letting me be myself around angel and zack so why not the Gentleman. These three friends of hers always seem to read me like a freakin book. I swear to god.
Angel says I have a megaphone built into my head. Zack and Natosha agree and will use it to their advantage any time they wish. I'm always boppin my head with my hand saying "Get outta my head".lol(insert inside joke here too)
About me,
As you've probably picked up on, I usually try to get along with people as long as they give me my space. Yet! These four seem to push my limits without trying and it pisses me off sometimes.lol
Let's see,
oh..as you also have guessed, I'm a major Laurell K. Hamilton reader, especially her Anita Blake Vampire Hunter Novels. I relate to her main character alot. All the chit she's been thru. I seem to also fall for the tall slim dark haired and piercing eyed handsome men. (you know who you are. he he he) Now, don't get me wrong, I'm starting to realize there's other qualities that I'm attracted to lately. Right now, I don't really want to get into too many graphic details. lol
Recently I've become "un" engaged. Ha. Yeah. WTF. Sometimes I wonder what goes thru a guy's mind when he asks for the ring back and then doesn't understand why I don't wish to talk to him or be around him. Anyone care to explain this to me, because I have no F'n clue. lol
So, I'm hoping this is a good start in blogging, as they call it. I'll keep you updated, if you care. hehehehe
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